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be_the_change's InsaneJournal:
| Monday, April 23rd, 2012 | |
| 9:07 pm | OKAY! SO! Today is, like, amazing! I can't believe that I spent so much time being so worried about everything these last couple of weeks. Everything is too amazing to worry about silly little things like my future and other stuff not even worth mentioning. |
| Monday, March 19th, 2012 | |
| 9:21 pm | Private to Ava and Maggie I'm going to go visit Charles' family over break. Is this a bad idea? /End Private Private to Lucy I'll deny until the end of time but I'm asking if you want to join our family for dinner tomorrow night. I know Molly is going to be there and I figure having another decent person there will keep me from murdering my mother. /End Private I have several interviews for internships over break. The "real world" is really looming large. Fuck it all. |
| Saturday, February 25th, 2012 | |
| 7:14 pm | This is fucking ridiculous. If anyone needs me I'll be in an empty room where there are none of these damned dolls. |
| Wednesday, February 15th, 2012 | |
| 2:49 pm | Private to Charles Thanks for the Valentine. It was unexpected. I hope you liked mine. /End Private Now that the day of hearts and flowers is over can we please get back to what amounts to normal around here? |
| Thursday, February 2nd, 2012 | |
| 8:01 pm | Private to Corbin and Charles Do either one of you have a spare hangover potion? I'm not hungover but I know myself well enough to know I'm going to need it in the morning. /End Private |
| 12:23 pm | Private to Ava Have you talked to Flint? /End Private Nice to see things back the way they should be. |
| Monday, January 30th, 2012 | |
| 1:09 am | Failed Ward to Ava and Maggie God, I feel like such a fucking girl. But I did it. I told him. And now there's potential snogging. Which is good. Very good because the first time was a-fucking-mazing. Damn the fucking Hogwarts team's issues with relationships to hell. If it weren't for them I'd probably BE snogging him right now instead of waxing poetic (or whatever) about it here. /End Ward |
| Sunday, January 22nd, 2012 | |
| 11:13 pm | Private to Charles Fuck this is awkward. But it's even more awkward if I just keep things on as they have been. Look, I don't pussy foot around usually and I'm not about to because I'm worried that you're going to drop me as a mate because of what I'm going to say. Even if it means losing you which is why I've not said anything yet. But the fact is that I've been in a pissy mood for months now and I'm fucking sick of it. So here it is. I like you. Like in a want to snog you and be exclusive kind of way (because I don't just do random hook ups). I've tried not to because it's fucking stupid but I can't. You're the kind of bloke that always catches my attention, good-looking and difficult. I get it if you tell me to fuck off. I'd probably tell myself to fuck off if I were you. But keeping it in was just making me miserable and as a rule I prefer to save myself misery whenever humanly possible. /End Private |
| Wednesday, January 4th, 2012 | |
| 11:34 pm | Private I'm the first person to admit that relationships are something that I feel I'm bound to fuck up. I figure it's in my DNA. I mean, look at what I did with Max. Things were good with him. We liked each other and I'm fairly sure that he loved me. I know I loved him. But because things were so good I had to go and fuck it all up by getting jealous and thinking he was going to cheat on me. I know that I'm fucked up and that I have an emotional wall that's a kilometer high and just as thick but that's safe. Max got past it. And I fucked him over. He still can't talk to me. And I don't know what the hell's happening with Charles but I need to stop acting like some kind of giddy school girl around him. It's embarassing. To both of us I'm sure. God, I fucking hate hormones and emotions. They screw us all over. /End Private Private to Jeremiah Tea tomorrow? I need my friendly snarker. And if you tell anyone I said I needed your company I'll fucking kill you. /End Private Private to 7th Huffle Girls Anyone interested in a girl's night in on Friday? /End Private Private to Charles Mission accomplished. Your da did just the trick. She thought she'd complain about the behaviour of some guests and how they shouldn't be invited. Dad reminded her that your dad is more of a pureblood than she is. It was beautiful. And I had a good time with you. /End Private |
| Wednesday, December 21st, 2011 | |
| 1:18 am | Chuckles /End Private Private to Jeremiah You know, I've never come up with a good enough cringe inducing nickname for you. This must be remedied. Posthaste. Or something. Possibly Bullfrog. Must ponder. Anyway, I didn't hex something just to torture you with nicknames, I would have done that in public. I'm just checking to see if you're ready to pull out your own hair and turn in your Head Boy badge after the debacle with the shirtless chauvanist. Remember this too shall pass. And that Leo's head probably nearly blew up when he read the word dick. I can offer my services as comic relief, a distraction to shut Leo the hell up if necessary, or someone who you don't have to be Head Boy around to have tea with. Take your pick. /End Private Private to Ava and Maggie Boys are smelly and stupid. Why do we like them? /End Private |
| Monday, December 12th, 2011 | |
| 10:20 am | I'm bored. Entertain me. |
| Saturday, December 10th, 2011 | |
| 12:28 am | I thank whatever powers that exist in the universe that there is no career booth for socialites because it means that I don't have to see her on career day. |
| Tuesday, December 6th, 2011 | |
| 9:31 am | Alice Looks like today I'm the one who needs to ask you if you need something for your hangover. I don't have any potions but I still have some of the tea Jeremiah sent me. /End Private Charles Can we talk? /End Private |
| Sunday, December 4th, 2011 | |
| 1:28 am | Fucking hangover. Really need to learn to hold my booze. If you need me I'll be sleeping off this fucking hangover. Charles Did I kiss you last night or did you kiss me? /End Private Private to Ava and Maggie Fuck, I got drunk last night and may have done something stupid. Not like ended up naked stupid. But still stupid. /Private |
| Thursday, November 24th, 2011 | |
| 11:42 am | Anyone else see a turkey streaking through the halls naked as a...well plucked turkey? Is this a part of American Thanksgiving because I totally get behind it. |
| Tuesday, November 22nd, 2011 | |
| 10:41 pm | Private I like parties. Parties are fun. But I fucking hate society. I hate the uncomfortable dresses that send my boobs into my chin. I hate the fucking heels that hurt after walking in them for three seconds. I hate the conversation that you have to pretend is so fucking interesting when really you'd like to find a gun so you could shoot yourself in the head. But I can actually stomach most of that. What I really fucking hate with a passion is that, by going, I'm giving her some kind of power. She knows that she's in her element there. She stands there all beautiful and shining and every fucking person there thinks that she's this perfect fucking wife. They got part of it right, she's a fucking wife alright. Fucking everything but her husband. But Dad wants me there. And Zac and Mols will be there. And this is the first grown up party Lissa's been invited to. I want to cause a scene. I want so fucking badly to embarrass her. But if I do that then I embarrass Dad and Zac and Lissa as well. I wish there was something I could do that would piss her off without doing something that would get me the disappointed look from Dad. And then there's the matter of the date. Which is expected from her. And then there's the date issue. The only bloke I can tolerate who doesn't have a date is Charles. I suspect she would approve of him. Damn. Why does this have to be so fucking hard? /End Private Here's a newsflash for everyone. No matter what you do, you piss people off. You're too nice then they ask you if you barf rainbows (used that line rather effectively this week myself) or they're too pissy (which I've been accused of this week rather rightly). You can't fucking please people so...don't. Do what you want to do and fuck everyone else. |
| Sunday, November 20th, 2011 | |
| 9:05 pm | Because Maggie is giving me puppy dog eyes and she's one of the few people in the universe who could make me do something like this. And because even I think that shit has gotten a little too serious lately. I'm adding pictures of my siblings here. There are actually pictures of me with Lissa because Zac is fucking impossible to photograph. ( Pictures ) |
| Wednesday, November 16th, 2011 | |
| 2:05 pm | Private Fuck, fuck FUCK! I forgot about the sodding Warbeck party. That woman is going to make me go and I'm going to once again make a fucking idiot of myself. I shouldn't be allowed in these situations because it always ends up some kind of fucking... Damnit. Dad will give me that disappointed look if I throw too much of a fit and Zac will give me shite if I refuse to go. Is it even worth it to fight this? /Private Private to Sev Any ideas on how I can make being forced to go to the Warbeck party entertaining? /Private Private to 7th Year Hufflepuff Girls Mark this date on your calendar, I'm apologising ahead of time. I'm sorry if I'm a bigger bitch than usual today. /Private The holiday season has officially begun. Yay. |
| Sunday, November 6th, 2011 | |
| 11:26 am | Flint, I have no idea what they put in your pumpkin juice but whatever it was actually made you a decent member of the human race. |
| Tuesday, October 25th, 2011 | |
| 1:18 am | T-minus four days and counting until our next school sponsored mating ritual. Yay. I have to say I'm feeling more trick than treat this year. |